Tem paciência?
Muita paciência.
Tem tempo livre?
Muitíssimo tempo livre.
Tem lanchinho, água, telefone por perto?
Providencie.
Tem certeza que tem saco pra isso?
Saco meeeeesmo.
Então tá.
[3/4/2007 00:06:29] Thomas Svenson diz : hola guapa
[3/4/2007 00:09:24] Katemari Rosa diz : hola que tal?
[3/4/2007 00:10:22] Thomas Svenson diz : Just great. Had a poker game at my local. Won both and is very happy.
[3/4/2007 00:10:28] Thomas Svenson diz : I miss you
[3/4/2007 00:10:54] Katemari Rosa diz : great
[3/4/2007 00:10:57] Katemari Rosa diz : you won the game
[3/4/2007 00:11:04] Katemari Rosa diz : how are things going on there?
[3/4/2007 00:11:17] Thomas Svenson diz : Yeah, I won both games...
[3/4/2007 00:11:29] Thomas Svenson diz : Just good.
[3/4/2007 00:11:44] Katemari Rosa diz : what do you mean by both?
[3/4/2007 00:12:10] Thomas Svenson diz : It was two tournaments and I won both...
[3/4/2007 00:12:21] Katemari Rosa diz : ah, ok
[3/4/2007 00:12:27] Thomas Svenson diz : I am a pretty good poker player you know...
[3/4/2007 00:12:58] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont know how to play it
[3/4/2007 00:13:14] Thomas Svenson diz : I am not getting sentimental or sometine, but I am really missing you...
[3/4/2007 00:13:27] Katemari Rosa diz : why?
[3/4/2007 00:13:32] Katemari Rosa diz : i mean...
[3/4/2007 00:13:57] Katemari Rosa diz : its strange to hear that
[3/4/2007 00:13:59] Katemari Rosa diz : just this.
[3/4/2007 00:14:07] Katemari Rosa diz : but i guess i feel flattered.
[3/4/2007 00:15:02] Thomas Svenson diz : To be honest, I don't really know. I think it is because you and I can have a good conversation. You know and intelligent discussion and so on. Plus that your are so cute.
[3/4/2007 00:15:36] Thomas Svenson diz : I feel very lucky for the time you and I spend together, I realise that now.
[3/4/2007 00:15:49] Katemari Rosa diz : is that sentence influeced by alcohol, or something?
[3/4/2007 00:15:58] Katemari Rosa diz : i am really really flattered
[3/4/2007 00:16:08] Thomas Svenson diz : NO!
[3/4/2007 00:16:14] Katemari Rosa diz : its just that sometimes when we drink we tend to miss ppl from the past
[3/4/2007 00:16:17] Katemari Rosa diz : oh, ok
[3/4/2007 00:16:26] Katemari Rosa diz : so it makes me feel even more flattered
[3/4/2007 00:16:53] Katemari Rosa diz : thats the kind of thing i never thought i would listen from you.
[3/4/2007 00:17:01] Thomas Svenson diz : I know what your trying to say, but I would really like to be with you right now...
[3/4/2007 00:17:53] Thomas Svenson diz : I thought you know by now that I am very good of hiding my true feeling...
[3/4/2007 00:18:55] Thomas Svenson diz : I don't think you really know how much I have been thinking of you since you went back...
[3/4/2007 00:19:49] Katemari Rosa diz : thats all very flattering - as i have repeatadly said - and revealling. and its hard to me to imagine you saying those things... im just very surprised.
[3/4/2007 00:19:57] Katemari Rosa diz : and i hope im not offending you by saying that
[3/4/2007 00:20:35] Katemari Rosa diz : no, i didnt think you have ever thought about me after i left. specially considering you were so in love with justine
[3/4/2007 00:20:45] Katemari Rosa diz : is that her name, isnt it?
[3/4/2007 00:21:00] Thomas Svenson diz : And hoe fucking stupid I was at that time. I didn't know better at the time, I was such a different person compared to who I am now.
[3/4/2007 00:21:42] Thomas Svenson diz : Ahh, you mean Delhine...
[3/4/2007 00:21:54] Katemari Rosa diz : ops
[3/4/2007 00:21:56] Katemari Rosa diz : yes
[3/4/2007 00:22:07] Thomas Svenson diz : I don't think you know what I really went through after you left...
[3/4/2007 00:22:09] Katemari Rosa diz : well i was right with the "ine" part
[3/4/2007 00:23:33] Thomas Svenson diz : You know, at least once a weak I look at the pictures I took of your...
[3/4/2007 00:23:56] Katemari Rosa diz : what i know is that you wer in love, you used to go there at her area and hang out with her and her friends, and after a while you guys were living together... and then you both moved to a flat for you guys only, and you were in love. and in the end, she broke up with you.
[3/4/2007 00:24:25] Katemari Rosa diz : well, i could never imagine that
[3/4/2007 00:26:07] Thomas Svenson diz : That was before I hit the big one...
[3/4/2007 00:26:23] Katemari Rosa diz : hit the big one?
[3/4/2007 00:26:31] Katemari Rosa diz : what that means?
[3/4/2007 00:26:46] Thomas Svenson diz : She couldn't handle when I had my depression.
[3/4/2007 00:27:28] Katemari Rosa diz : well, it can be hard
[3/4/2007 00:27:53] Thomas Svenson diz : I was hitting rock bottom. I was basically sitting at the pub trying to figure out the best way of ending my life...
[3/4/2007 00:27:56] Katemari Rosa diz : its not easy for both, the depreesed and the partner.
[3/4/2007 00:28:54] Katemari Rosa diz : im sorry to hear that, specially because i really liked you.
[3/4/2007 00:29:06] Thomas Svenson diz : I know, now it is uears behind me and I am a feeling great. I got loads of friends down here. More friends than I have ever had in my life. I still miss you though...
[3/4/2007 00:29:32] Thomas Svenson diz : uears=years
[3/4/2007 00:30:27] Katemari Rosa diz : i really appreciate you are telling me this now, even after all these years.
[3/4/2007 00:31:33] Thomas Svenson diz : Sorry, I sdhould have said this long ago but I am such a tight person. It's not easy to get under my skin if you know what I am trying to say...
[3/4/2007 00:32:32] Thomas Svenson diz : I really want to be more honest to you, and others, but it is so dificilut for me the way I am...
[3/4/2007 00:33:26] Katemari Rosa diz : I would say, for today, that you are doing a great job on trying to open yourself
[3/4/2007 00:33:40] Katemari Rosa diz : i cant say how much im surprised
[3/4/2007 00:33:50] Katemari Rosa diz : im serious.
[3/4/2007 00:34:09] Thomas Svenson diz : Thanks. I really need too. Its not easy for me to do this you know...
[3/4/2007 00:34:49] Katemari Rosa diz : ;)
[3/4/2007 00:34:49] Katemari Rosa diz : you should send me this photos sometime, by the way!
[3/4/2007 00:35:08] Thomas Svenson diz : To be honest, I don't think you are even close to knowing how much I think about you...
[3/4/2007 00:35:26] Thomas Svenson diz : Which photos?
[3/4/2007 00:35:43] Katemari Rosa diz : these you said you look sometimes
[3/4/2007 00:36:52] Thomas Svenson diz : Ahh, they are in my other computer. You remember the ones I took in Hyde Park? In the high grass when you looked soo sweet and lovely?
[3/4/2007 00:37:11] Katemari Rosa diz : ahhhhhhhhhh
[3/4/2007 00:37:22] Katemari Rosa diz : i remember that high grass
[3/4/2007 00:37:35] Thomas Svenson diz : I look at them in my head and remember how good I felt with you those days...
[3/4/2007 00:37:59] Thomas Svenson diz : You had an orange top I think...
[3/4/2007 00:38:03] Katemari Rosa diz : yes
[3/4/2007 00:38:09] Katemari Rosa diz : with a white flower on it
[3/4/2007 00:38:17] Katemari Rosa diz : i still have that top
[3/4/2007 00:38:19] Thomas Svenson diz : Something like that...
[3/4/2007 00:38:25] Katemari Rosa diz : i like it, but its old already
[3/4/2007 00:38:56] Thomas Svenson diz : You where so cute, and I think (I hope) you where quite hapy as well...
[3/4/2007 00:39:03] Katemari Rosa diz : i was
[3/4/2007 00:39:12] Katemari Rosa diz : i enjoyed the time i spent with you
[3/4/2007 00:39:20] Katemari Rosa diz : i liked your sense of humour
[3/4/2007 00:39:35] Katemari Rosa diz : and i liked your kissing
[3/4/2007 00:39:43] Thomas Svenson diz : You know what, I really want to spend more time with you...
[3/4/2007 00:40:28] Thomas Svenson diz : I loved your kisses
[3/4/2007 00:41:59] Thomas Svenson diz : Would you like it if I came over for a visit?
[3/4/2007 00:42:14] Katemari Rosa diz : are you serious?
[3/4/2007 00:42:20] Katemari Rosa diz : i mean...
[3/4/2007 00:42:23] Thomas Svenson diz : Yes!
[3/4/2007 00:42:40] Katemari Rosa diz : im confused
[3/4/2007 00:42:49] Thomas Svenson diz : Why?
[3/4/2007 00:42:56] Katemari Rosa diz : this is so unexpected
[3/4/2007 00:43:48] Katemari Rosa diz : i think i would like to have a visit from you, yes
[3/4/2007 00:44:40] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont know how it would be... i dont know if i could get involved with you again.
[3/4/2007 00:44:58] Thomas Svenson diz : I would love to come and visit you. I will probably (no, very likely) be very nervous though...
[3/4/2007 00:45:17] Katemari Rosa diz : because i think i would be afraid of you
[3/4/2007 00:45:28] Thomas Svenson diz : I understadn what you mean
[3/4/2007 00:45:35] Katemari Rosa diz : you know i got deeply hurt that time
[3/4/2007 00:45:41] Thomas Svenson diz : ¨It would be the same for me.
[3/4/2007 00:46:18] Thomas Svenson diz : I know how I was back then and I hate myself for what I put you through...
[3/4/2007 00:46:56] Thomas Svenson diz : Only thing I can say is that that person does not exist anymore...
[3/4/2007 00:47:45] Katemari Rosa diz : and what i can say is that if you feel you would like to come here to visit me, you would be welcome.
[3/4/2007 00:48:20] Katemari Rosa diz : and i believe we could have a good time together, no matter what happens
[3/4/2007 00:49:07] Katemari Rosa diz : i mean, we know each other for some time already, and im sure we would have a lot to talk and share
[3/4/2007 00:49:22] Thomas Svenson diz : You know, the only thing I want is to be happy. To be honest, I truly believe I could be very happy with you,,,
[3/4/2007 00:49:56] Katemari Rosa diz : what makes you think that?
[3/4/2007 00:49:59] Thomas Svenson diz : And I am pretty sure I would be able to make you happy too.
[3/4/2007 00:50:20] Katemari Rosa diz : because we didnt spend that much time together, after all.
[3/4/2007 00:50:30] Katemari Rosa diz : i just want to be happy too.
[3/4/2007 00:50:35] Thomas Svenson diz : It's just a feeling I have. I have learned to trust my feelings.
[3/4/2007 00:50:55] Thomas Svenson diz : It was enough for me.
[3/4/2007 00:51:05] Thomas Svenson diz : I know that now.
[3/4/2007 00:51:55] Katemari Rosa diz : after all this time... and with all these things you are saying today, all i can say is, please, dont hurt me.
[3/4/2007 00:51:57] Thomas Svenson diz : Do you know what I want from a woman?
[3/4/2007 00:52:12] Katemari Rosa diz : what do you want from a woman?
[3/4/2007 00:52:26] Thomas Svenson diz : I would rather kill myself than hur you!
[3/4/2007 00:53:12] Thomas Svenson diz : As I said, what do you think I want from a woman?
[3/4/2007 00:53:20] Katemari Rosa diz : I dont know
[3/4/2007 00:53:37] Katemari Rosa diz : I dont know if i know you anymore
[3/4/2007 00:53:42] Katemari Rosa diz : its hard to tell
[3/4/2007 00:54:09] Katemari Rosa diz : at that time, you seemed to me a lovely guy, who liked to look tough
[3/4/2007 00:54:25] Katemari Rosa diz : a young guy
[3/4/2007 00:54:47] Katemari Rosa diz : a simple guy
[3/4/2007 00:54:56] Thomas Svenson diz : OK
[3/4/2007 00:54:56] Katemari Rosa diz : a friendly one
[3/4/2007 00:55:12] Katemari Rosa diz : as well as an egocentric one
[3/4/2007 00:55:55] Thomas Svenson diz : I just want someone who loves me, who wants to share the rest of her life with me, who want to grow woth me and explore live with me.
[3/4/2007 00:56:35] Katemari Rosa diz : i think these are good goals
[3/4/2007 00:56:42] Thomas Svenson diz : That includes someone who has goals, who wants to do something and are looking for my support in reaching that goal.
[3/4/2007 00:57:21] Katemari Rosa diz : what happend to the girl you moved with in spain?
[3/4/2007 00:57:54] Thomas Svenson diz : Please don't talk about her, she almost destroyed me...
[3/4/2007 00:58:52] Thomas Svenson diz : I had to spend 6 month in Sweden after my dad died. Both to handle that and to get my head in order again...
[3/4/2007 00:59:46] Katemari Rosa diz : :(
[3/4/2007 01:00:39] Thomas Svenson diz : As they say "What doesn't kill you makes your stronger" if you know what I mean...
[3/4/2007 01:01:09] Katemari Rosa diz : yes...
[3/4/2007 01:01:48] Thomas Svenson diz : The thing is, that the more days that passes, the more I think of you and how good we had it...
[3/4/2007 01:03:05] Katemari Rosa diz : well, what i can say is... im very very very surprised with all these talk, but im glad we had it. and again, i feel flattered, and dont know exactly what to say or what i should expect or not.
[3/4/2007 01:03:10] Thomas Svenson diz : In a way I am starting to think you and I are just ment to be. OK I am sounding silly now, but for each day I think more and more about you...
[3/4/2007 01:04:32] Thomas Svenson diz : OK, now you know how I feel about you. I guess my question is; Do you still have any feelings for me?
[3/4/2007 01:05:19] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont know how to answer this question
[3/4/2007 01:06:05] Katemari Rosa diz : at some point i have blocked my thoughts about you in a way that was not a friendly way.
[3/4/2007 01:07:11] Thomas Svenson diz : I can understand that... You met theold me, I am very different now...
[3/4/2007 01:07:47] Katemari Rosa diz : I try to be with you everytime you need me, or not need me, but need a friend, or want to share your feelings.
[3/4/2007 01:08:08] Katemari Rosa diz : i tried to always keep in contact with you, even in the delphine time.
[3/4/2007 01:08:20] Katemari Rosa diz : i wondered about you, and your life...
[3/4/2007 01:08:42] Katemari Rosa diz : and i didnt feed feelings for you that time
[3/4/2007 01:08:48] Katemari Rosa diz : im not such a masochist
[3/4/2007 01:08:52] Thomas Svenson diz : I know, I was in such a mess you wont believe it....
[3/4/2007 01:08:56] Katemari Rosa diz : im just a little bit masochist
[3/4/2007 01:09:40] Thomas Svenson diz : Believe me, I have cried myself to sleep so may times thinking about the way I pushed you away from me...
[3/4/2007 01:10:15] Katemari Rosa diz : but you were in love with her, right?
[3/4/2007 01:10:31] Thomas Svenson diz : No, you are a wonderful and lovely person. Someone I treated so bad....
[3/4/2007 01:11:35] Katemari Rosa diz : if you were not in love, so why did you do that?
[3/4/2007 01:11:37] Thomas Svenson diz : The thing is I don't know. I thought I was, but when I think of past time, your face is always visibile for me.
[3/4/2007 01:12:15] Thomas Svenson diz : I can only take that as a sig of that you are the one I really missed out on and the one I really want to be with...
[3/4/2007 01:12:22] Katemari Rosa diz : maybe we just didnt spend time enough for being mad with each other
[3/4/2007 01:12:41] Thomas Svenson diz : sig=sign
[3/4/2007 01:12:42] Katemari Rosa diz : dont say that, unless you REALLY mean it
[3/4/2007 01:12:56] Thomas Svenson diz : I do mean it
[3/4/2007 01:13:29] Thomas Svenson diz : Do you know how much I would like to have your arms around me RIGHT NOW!!!!
[3/4/2007 01:13:52] Katemari Rosa diz : no
[3/4/2007 01:14:07] Thomas Svenson diz : THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCH!!!
[3/4/2007 01:14:23] Katemari Rosa diz : but i know you were the only person i used to sleep in a hug
[3/4/2007 01:14:53] Thomas Svenson diz : Right now I just want to hug you, kiss you and do everything else with you...
[3/4/2007 01:15:14] Katemari Rosa diz : maybe thats it then
[3/4/2007 01:15:27] Thomas Svenson diz : what?
[3/4/2007 01:15:35] Katemari Rosa diz : the bed part
[3/4/2007 01:15:42] Thomas Svenson diz : No
[3/4/2007 01:15:56] Katemari Rosa diz : dont take me wrong, im not saying you are trying to deceive me
[3/4/2007 01:16:13] Katemari Rosa diz : im just trying to understand where all this came from
[3/4/2007 01:16:37] Katemari Rosa diz : its not easy for me to 'listen' all that now, after what... 5 years.
[3/4/2007 01:17:27] Thomas Svenson diz : I don't know what all this is coming from. Its driving me crazy every time I see your name on MSn or Skype. I just want to be with yout every blody time I see your name....
[3/4/2007 01:18:04] Thomas Svenson diz : No, It can't be 5 years?
[3/4/2007 01:19:04] Katemari Rosa diz : if, by one side, i was so deeply hurt and feel afraid of getting hurt again, in another side, i wouldnt like to miss someone that could be the one. i dont want to be a stone or an ice rock for further relationships.
[3/4/2007 01:19:12] Katemari Rosa diz : yes... i went to london in 2002
[3/4/2007 01:19:19] Katemari Rosa diz : came to salvador in 2003
[3/4/2007 01:20:14] Thomas Svenson diz : I'm losing track of time... I still miss you...
[3/4/2007 01:20:57] Katemari Rosa diz : and i have 'just' been out of a relationship that was too strong and in a way made me feel like... 'suspicious' ? of any new relationship
[3/4/2007 01:21:32] Thomas Svenson diz : I know how much I hurted you. That's why it took me so long to start chatting whing you. I felt so bad about everything...
[3/4/2007 01:23:02] Katemari Rosa diz : its funny
[3/4/2007 01:23:04] Thomas Svenson diz : I know what a bastart I can be sometimes. I am not proud of it, rather shamed of it.
[3/4/2007 01:23:10] Katemari Rosa diz : i thought about you today
[3/4/2007 01:23:18] Katemari Rosa diz : i saw this site
[3/4/2007 01:23:34] Thomas Svenson diz : Swedish bastard?
[3/4/2007 01:23:35] Katemari Rosa diz : http://www.klubbfh.se/
[3/4/2007 01:23:51] Katemari Rosa diz : and then i thought, is that swedish?
[3/4/2007 01:24:02] Katemari Rosa diz : of course i cant recognize swedish
[3/4/2007 01:24:12] Katemari Rosa diz : but it says sveriges
[3/4/2007 01:24:25] Katemari Rosa diz : and i think thatis swedishes
[3/4/2007 01:24:28] Thomas Svenson diz : Loading the site...
[3/4/2007 01:24:45] Katemari Rosa diz : anywhow i saw this site thsi morning, and i was at the office.
[3/4/2007 01:24:58] Katemari Rosa diz : i left the computer hipernating and the window open
[3/4/2007 01:25:03] Katemari Rosa diz : then i could ask you later
[3/4/2007 01:25:08] Katemari Rosa diz : its silly
[3/4/2007 01:25:11] Katemari Rosa diz : i know.
[3/4/2007 01:26:37] Thomas Svenson diz : OK it is loaded. Its a meeting place for Swedish people with handicaps, like people who have functional problems.
[3/4/2007 01:26:50] Katemari Rosa diz : yes, yes, i know what the site is about
[3/4/2007 01:27:02] Katemari Rosa diz : but i thought they had already in english
[3/4/2007 01:27:09] Thomas Svenson diz : I know you can't know that since its all in Swedish.
[3/4/2007 01:27:29] Katemari Rosa diz : the article i read was saying the site owner is spreading the business for other countries
[3/4/2007 01:27:44] Katemari Rosa diz : it was an article abut inclusion
[3/4/2007 01:27:53] Katemari Rosa diz : thats why i know the content
[3/4/2007 01:27:57] Thomas Svenson diz : That's good. Everyone needs love
[3/4/2007 01:28:03] Katemari Rosa diz : exactly
[3/4/2007 01:28:21] Katemari Rosa diz : some say 'all we need is love'
[3/4/2007 01:28:23] Katemari Rosa diz : :P
[3/4/2007 01:28:30] Thomas Svenson diz : Beetles
[3/4/2007 01:29:02] Thomas Svenson diz : You want me to be really really honest?
[3/4/2007 01:29:11] Katemari Rosa diz : please
[3/4/2007 01:29:44] Thomas Svenson diz : I haven't stoped loving you since you left UK.
[3/4/2007 01:30:14] Katemari Rosa diz : how can you know that
[3/4/2007 01:30:22] Katemari Rosa diz : last weeks i was there you rejected me
[3/4/2007 01:30:30] Katemari Rosa diz : more than having a new gf
[3/4/2007 01:30:34] Thomas Svenson diz : I have only missed you and been thinking that we would never meet again. That has been hard to think for me.
[3/4/2007 01:30:41] Katemari Rosa diz : you didnt want to touch me, thomas
[3/4/2007 01:30:49] Katemari Rosa diz : not even holding my hand
[3/4/2007 01:31:14] Katemari Rosa diz : do you have any idea of how strange all these sounds for me?
[3/4/2007 01:31:41] Thomas Svenson diz : I know, but as I have said before, I was about to crack up. I went into the worst depression you could think of....
[3/4/2007 01:31:42] Katemari Rosa diz : because then im obligated to think about you not only as a friend, as ive been doing lately
[3/4/2007 01:32:09] Thomas Svenson diz : Yes I know how it sounds for you...
[3/4/2007 01:32:13] Katemari Rosa diz : and it also makes me think in all that happend, and that, in a way, i have blocked.
[3/4/2007 01:32:38] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont want to cry
[3/4/2007 01:32:40] Katemari Rosa diz : im going to bed
[3/4/2007 01:32:45] Thomas Svenson diz : What is it you have blocked?
[3/4/2007 01:32:45] Katemari Rosa diz : well, im in bed
[3/4/2007 01:32:52] Katemari Rosa diz : im going to sleep, i mean.
[3/4/2007 01:33:06] Katemari Rosa diz : ive blocked all that happens in london
[3/4/2007 01:33:11] Katemari Rosa diz : all the bad part
[3/4/2007 01:33:23] Katemari Rosa diz : the way you treated me after meeting delphine
[3/4/2007 01:33:43] Thomas Svenson diz : OK, if you skip the bad parts... IS there anything in there for me?
[3/4/2007 01:33:44] Katemari Rosa diz : the day by the pool, in ibiza
[3/4/2007 01:34:04] Katemari Rosa diz : the day in the park, after you have been with her in london
[3/4/2007 01:34:21] Katemari Rosa diz : the day you were checking your mobile sending sms to her
[3/4/2007 01:34:28] Katemari Rosa diz : and getting sms from her
[3/4/2007 01:34:29] Thomas Svenson diz : I know, it was just me getting scared about you had to go away and I was so fucking stupid and everything...
[3/4/2007 01:34:41] Katemari Rosa diz : the day i arrived in your flat and there was an extra bed
[3/4/2007 01:34:59] Katemari Rosa diz : and you were not talking to me
[3/4/2007 01:35:11] Katemari Rosa diz : and you were mad because she said she got an email from me
[3/4/2007 01:35:19] Katemari Rosa diz : and i had to show you the email
[3/4/2007 01:35:37] Thomas Svenson diz : That all was the old me. If you and I sat down today you would think "Who is this guy..."
[3/4/2007 01:35:39] Katemari Rosa diz : i remember me in prague, just crying all the time
[3/4/2007 01:36:25] Katemari Rosa diz : or in the london buses
[3/4/2007 01:36:27] Katemari Rosa diz : crying
[3/4/2007 01:36:53] Katemari Rosa diz : the day i met a brazilian friend, by chance, in a cybercafe, and i was crying and trying to find a flight back hom
[3/4/2007 01:36:55] Katemari Rosa diz : home
[3/4/2007 01:37:02] Katemari Rosa diz : to antecipate my back
[3/4/2007 01:37:18] Thomas Svenson diz : I know and I am so sorry for everything. As I said before, I see you in front of me when I go to bed and part of me just want to cry about what I put you through. I will never ever be able to let you know hgow sorry I am for that.,
[3/4/2007 01:37:28] Katemari Rosa diz : and how she was much more interesting than i was
[3/4/2007 01:37:37] Katemari Rosa diz : and you have well pointed that
[3/4/2007 01:38:21] Thomas Svenson diz : Now I know that a lot of it was to do with that you where goign back and I was so scared of being left alone again...
[3/4/2007 01:39:47] Katemari Rosa diz : what am i supposed to do now, thomas?
[3/4/2007 01:40:05] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont want to get hurt
[3/4/2007 01:40:29] Thomas Svenson diz : You know, I have never had any real girfriends. You where actually one of the first real girlfriends I had. I was really confused and adding everything else I just (exuse my language) fucked up everything.
[3/4/2007 01:40:34] Katemari Rosa diz : i know how hard it was for me. and i dont want to put you against the wall
[3/4/2007 01:41:16] Katemari Rosa diz : but i dont know what im supposed to say
[3/4/2007 01:41:18] Katemari Rosa diz : or to do.
[3/4/2007 01:42:01] Thomas Svenson diz : Hey, I am not asking you for anything. I am just being very honest about my feelings right now. I have a sence that you might still feel something for me and if you do I don't want to lose that too.
[3/4/2007 01:42:55] Katemari Rosa diz : being honest i dont know what i feel
[3/4/2007 01:43:34] Katemari Rosa diz : there was a time i had that dream that you would come and say you liked me or something
[3/4/2007 01:43:42] Katemari Rosa diz : but it passed. you never did.
[3/4/2007 01:43:58] Katemari Rosa diz : you were always happy with your girlfriends
[3/4/2007 01:44:14] Katemari Rosa diz : always having a wonderful life with delphine
[3/4/2007 01:44:24] Thomas Svenson diz : I don't know if it is still love I feel. It probably is since I cn't stop thinking about you. I know how much pain I have caused you, but I am different now and hopefulley, if you are still interested, we might have a second chance...
[3/4/2007 01:44:29] Katemari Rosa diz : the day you said she broke up with you, it was a surprise.
[3/4/2007 01:45:35] Katemari Rosa diz : so you have been really thinking about coming 'down' here?
[3/4/2007 01:45:48] Thomas Svenson diz : Yes
[3/4/2007 01:45:58] Thomas Svenson diz : Soooooooooooooooo many times
[3/4/2007 01:47:24] Katemari Rosa diz : just to see what happens?
[3/4/2007 01:49:14] Thomas Svenson diz : I would fly over just to see if you still have feelings for me. If you do I would take it from there...
[3/4/2007 01:49:35] Thomas Svenson diz : I would take a one way ticket..
[3/4/2007 01:50:07] Katemari Rosa diz : one way?
[3/4/2007 01:50:18] Katemari Rosa diz : what about your work there, and your stuff?
[3/4/2007 01:52:06] Thomas Svenson diz : My work is internet. I can sell my stuff here...
[3/4/2007 01:53:13] Thomas Svenson diz : I can get by with my limited Spanish as it is. You think I can get a job over there?
[3/4/2007 01:53:59] Thomas Svenson diz : Do I need a visa?
[3/4/2007 01:54:04] Katemari Rosa diz : well, actually i dont think you can get a one way ticket
[3/4/2007 01:54:14] Katemari Rosa diz : no, for tourism, you dont need a visa
[3/4/2007 01:54:18] Katemari Rosa diz : for working, yes.
[3/4/2007 01:54:18] Thomas Svenson diz : Shit
[3/4/2007 01:54:37] Thomas Svenson diz : OK, how long can I be a tourist?
[3/4/2007 01:54:42] Katemari Rosa diz : and i dont know how it works.
[3/4/2007 01:54:47] Katemari Rosa diz : tourist, 3 months
[3/4/2007 01:55:05] Thomas Svenson diz : OK
[3/4/2007 01:55:41] Thomas Svenson diz : Question. Do you want me to come over?
[3/4/2007 01:56:58] Katemari Rosa diz : i would like to see you, yes. i wouldnt like a one way ticket commitment, no. i would like to see you again, and talk to you again, and see what happens...
[3/4/2007 01:57:54] Thomas Svenson diz : Good. Then I come for a "long" holiday and we see how things work out?
[3/4/2007 01:58:40] Thomas Svenson diz : If things wokr out we take it from there...
[3/4/2007 01:58:49] Katemari Rosa diz : that sounds reasonable
[3/4/2007 01:59:08] Katemari Rosa diz : still strange, i have to confess. but reasonable.
[3/4/2007 01:59:17] Katemari Rosa diz : sorry, im still very surprised with this night
[3/4/2007 01:59:30] Thomas Svenson diz : Yeah, I agree it feels very strange...
[3/4/2007 02:01:08] Thomas Svenson diz : I just can't help it. When I see you online and I see your picture all these warm good feelings comes to me, then I get cold thinking about how bad I treated you and I get sad. I just want to make it right you know...
[3/4/2007 02:02:42] Thomas Svenson diz : You still there?
[3/4/2007 02:02:44] Katemari Rosa diz : im not saying that you are coming and we will both realize we do love each other and live for the rest of our lives together. or that, after doming you will have to love me and desire me inconditionally, but please, dont hurt me agina.
[3/4/2007 02:02:47] Katemari Rosa diz : *again
[3/4/2007 02:05:27] Thomas Svenson diz : Please Katemari, I feel (and I have for so long time) so bad for what I put you through. Even writhing this I feel a lump in my throught about it. I know I will never ever be able to make it right and I will feel bad for the rest of my life. I just hope you will give me one more chance to show you how I really am now.
[3/4/2007 02:07:22] Katemari Rosa diz : we are both differents now
[3/4/2007 02:07:34] Katemari Rosa diz : as i said, i would like to see you again
[3/4/2007 02:07:55] Katemari Rosa diz : we could get to know each other one more time
[3/4/2007 02:08:30] Thomas Svenson diz : Yes we are. Worst thing would be that we would not like each other at all as we are now.
[3/4/2007 02:08:54] Thomas Svenson diz : However, I am prepared to take that chance...
[3/4/2007 02:10:00] Katemari Rosa diz : well...
[3/4/2007 02:10:11] Thomas Svenson diz : Having this chat with you tonight (as it is night for me) just tells me how much I really miss you.
[3/4/2007 02:10:58] Katemari Rosa diz : and im still... surprised.
[3/4/2007 02:11:09] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont want to sound repetitive
[3/4/2007 02:11:16] Thomas Svenson diz : I can fully understand that...
[3/4/2007 02:11:23] Katemari Rosa diz : the 'surprised' maybe just show my lack of vocabulary
[3/4/2007 02:11:47] Thomas Svenson diz : No, no I do understand why you use it
[3/4/2007 02:11:56] Katemari Rosa diz : but its the whole thing... it was so unexpected
[3/4/2007 02:12:28] Thomas Svenson diz : To be honest, for me too...
[3/4/2007 02:13:48] Katemari Rosa diz : is it still night for you?
[3/4/2007 02:13:51] Katemari Rosa diz : its 2am here
[3/4/2007 02:14:03] Katemari Rosa diz : i havent been awake that late for... i dont know how long
[3/4/2007 02:14:10] Katemari Rosa diz : i woke up at 4h30 am this morning
[3/4/2007 02:14:19] Thomas Svenson diz : 7:15 in the morning here
[3/4/2007 02:14:23] Katemari Rosa diz : i have to wake up at 4h30 for going to work
[3/4/2007 02:14:35] Katemari Rosa diz : you havent slept then!
[3/4/2007 02:14:46] Katemari Rosa diz : but i wont work tomorrow (today)
[3/4/2007 02:15:06] Katemari Rosa diz : i will be flying back my moms on tuesday (today)
[3/4/2007 02:15:13] Thomas Svenson diz : Nope, and I'm not sure I will be able to as things are now...
[3/4/2007 02:15:23] Katemari Rosa diz : will leave salvador around 17h, and arrie there 23h30
[3/4/2007 02:15:35] Katemari Rosa diz : how things are now?
[3/4/2007 02:15:37] Thomas Svenson diz : Hello mom
[3/4/2007 02:16:17] Thomas Svenson diz : I feel good. I am glad we have had this chat...
[3/4/2007 02:16:29] Thomas Svenson diz : What about you?
[3/4/2007 02:16:59] Katemari Rosa diz : I feel confused, honestly
[3/4/2007 02:17:21] Katemari Rosa diz : its hard to tell how i feel
[3/4/2007 02:17:23] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont know
[3/4/2007 02:17:31] Thomas Svenson diz : Explain please
[3/4/2007 02:19:15] Katemari Rosa diz : well, as i said before, for a long time i wanted to hear all of this... and i never did. on the contrary. then, 5 years have passed, and i get all of this, in one single shot, in one night. and its not that you have been starting talking to me lately or something. it was all at once.
[3/4/2007 02:19:57] Katemari Rosa diz : than, during this conversation tonight, i remembered all ive been through, and how hard and strong it was. and how, for some time, i tried to hate you
[3/4/2007 02:20:30] Katemari Rosa diz : and im confused because im waiting for the time when you are going to say it was a joke.
[3/4/2007 02:20:43] Katemari Rosa diz : but then i think you are not a kid, and you would never joke like this
[3/4/2007 02:21:03] Thomas Svenson diz : Noooooooo, I am dead serious about this!
[3/4/2007 02:21:04] Katemari Rosa diz : and for not being a kid, you may be serious....
[3/4/2007 02:21:22] Katemari Rosa diz : and if it is all for real, whats going to happen now.
[3/4/2007 02:21:45] Katemari Rosa diz : and then i feel flattered and afraid of thinking about you not as just a friend.
[3/4/2007 02:22:05] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont know if this all explain much of my 'confusing ideas'
[3/4/2007 02:22:15] Katemari Rosa diz : i guess they cant be explained.
[3/4/2007 02:22:37] Thomas Svenson diz : Simple question. What do you want that shall happen?
[3/4/2007 02:23:07] Katemari Rosa diz : i dont know
[3/4/2007 02:23:33] Thomas Svenson diz : Doy you still have some feelings for me?
[3/4/2007 02:23:34] Katemari Rosa diz : i just want to wake up and see it was not a night allucination
[3/4/2007 02:26:11] Thomas Svenson diz : This is not an halucination. I just want to know if there is any chance it still could be you and me and we can make each other happu no matter what....
[3/4/2007 02:26:49] Katemari Rosa diz : i know i dont hate you. i know i wish all the best. i dont know if i could love you again. i know ive been through a lot. i know a guy has just proposed me and i accepted, and he broke up with me. i know i feel lonely. I know i feel a faiure in relationships. I know i want to be happy.
[3/4/2007 02:27:11] Katemari Rosa diz : 2nd sentence: i know i wish YOU all the best.
[3/4/2007 02:27:52] Katemari Rosa diz : i have at this point very mixed feelings.
[3/4/2007 02:28:01] Katemari Rosa diz : thats all
[3/4/2007 02:28:04] Thomas Svenson diz : I can understand that.
[3/4/2007 02:29:02] Thomas Svenson diz : A guy wanted to marry you and then canceled it? I will break his nose!!!
[3/4/2007 02:29:24] Thomas Svenson diz : To start with!!!
[3/4/2007 02:29:39] Katemari Rosa diz : yes, he did. he proposed in august. he broke up with me in october.
[3/4/2007 02:29:54] Katemari Rosa diz : he looked for me again in january. we went out
[3/4/2007 02:30:04] Katemari Rosa diz : we had a good time, in a sunday.
[3/4/2007 02:30:12] Katemari Rosa diz : i traveled for one week...
[3/4/2007 02:30:22] Katemari Rosa diz : when i came back in feb, he had a new gf
[3/4/2007 02:31:26] Thomas Svenson diz : I hope I wont meet him. If I do I will hit him hard!!!
[3/4/2007 02:31:42] Katemari Rosa diz : :P
[3/4/2007 02:34:01] Thomas Svenson diz : Why are you so cute?
[3/4/2007 02:34:33] Katemari Rosa diz : hmmm werent the frenchie cuter
[3/4/2007 02:34:33] Katemari Rosa diz : :P
[3/4/2007 02:35:21] Thomas Svenson diz : Hm, your trying to corner me now...
[3/4/2007 02:35:25] Katemari Rosa diz : in case you really decide coming here... if i say i think a girl is cute, please, try not to be with her.
[3/4/2007 02:35:32] Katemari Rosa diz : whats corner?
[3/4/2007 02:36:15] Thomas Svenson diz : That's when you pus someone inte a corner whrere there is no escape....
[3/4/2007 02:36:21] Thomas Svenson diz : pus=push
[3/4/2007 02:36:25] Katemari Rosa diz : ah
[3/4/2007 02:37:40] Thomas Svenson diz : Sure she was cute, but not nearly as cute as you are. Not just your good looks but the way we can talk as well. Intelect is cute for me too and you got plenty of that.
[3/4/2007 02:39:47] Katemari Rosa diz : i should get some sleeping..
[3/4/2007 02:40:15] Thomas Svenson diz : This is too heavy for you?
[3/4/2007 02:40:37] Katemari Rosa diz : what?
[3/4/2007 02:41:27] Thomas Svenson diz : It means "Is this dicussion we are having a bit to much for you"....
[3/4/2007 02:41:48] Katemari Rosa diz : well, its not an easy discussion
[3/4/2007 02:41:49] Katemari Rosa diz : but
[3/4/2007 02:41:56] Thomas Svenson diz : As you have been saying it has been a bit confusing for you...
[3/4/2007 02:42:21] Katemari Rosa diz : i said i should get some sleeping because its pretty late for my standards
[3/4/2007 02:42:39] Katemari Rosa diz : i cant say it wasnt heavy
[3/4/2007 02:42:54] Katemari Rosa diz : all at once its never easy
[3/4/2007 02:43:25] Katemari Rosa diz : and i cant just switch for an in love mode.
[3/4/2007 02:43:45] Katemari Rosa diz : as i said, im not closed, but being open its not instantaneous
[3/4/2007 02:44:00] Thomas Svenson diz : Well, I am still waiting for you to say if you still have some feeling for me or not... I just want to know that and if you want me to come for a short/long visit to find out where we are...
[3/4/2007 02:45:10] Katemari Rosa diz : i said i would like to see you again, and talk to you again, and spend some time with you, and have a time for us to get to know each other again.
[3/4/2007 02:45:27] Katemari Rosa diz : and i said i dont know what are the feelings i have for you.
[3/4/2007 02:45:42] Thomas Svenson diz : Good, all I need to know right now....
[3/4/2007 02:46:15] Thomas Svenson diz : I can understand as you said you have spended a lot of time trying to "hate me"
[3/4/2007 02:47:19] Katemari Rosa diz : yes...
[3/4/2007 02:47:54] Katemari Rosa diz : thomas, i better get going now
[3/4/2007 02:48:14] Katemari Rosa diz : i need to sleep and wake up early
[3/4/2007 02:48:16] Thomas Svenson diz : I still think your vey cute though. An as I remember you vere especially cute in the mornings...
[3/4/2007 02:48:39] Katemari Rosa diz : in the mornins????????????
[3/4/2007 02:48:43] Katemari Rosa diz : why?
[3/4/2007 02:49:24] Katemari Rosa diz : does your sound work?
[3/4/2007 02:49:47] Thomas Svenson diz : For different reasons. I know I am like Frankenstein in the mornings, you changed that and made me feel good in the mornings...
[3/4/2007 02:49:51] Katemari Rosa diz : its hard for me now to type with onehand
[3/4/2007 02:50:31] Katemari Rosa diz : why Frankenstein?
[3/4/2007 02:50:33] Thomas Svenson diz : What are you doinf with the other hand?
[3/4/2007 02:50:47] Katemari Rosa diz : nothing
[3/4/2007 02:51:04] Thomas Svenson diz : really?
[3/4/2007 02:51:05] Katemari Rosa diz : but im laying down
[3/4/2007 02:51:32] Katemari Rosa diz : so cant use both hands
[3/4/2007 02:51:57] Katemari Rosa diz : b4 i was sat on my bed
[3/4/2007 02:52:12] Thomas Svenson diz : I'm in bed and have no problems using both my hands...
[3/4/2007 02:52:55] Thomas Svenson diz : You got a webcam there?
[3/4/2007 02:53:15] Katemari Rosa diz : not here
[3/4/2007 02:53:34] Katemari Rosa diz : and rhe
[3/4/2007 02:53:46] Thomas Svenson diz : Pity. I would have loved seeing a live picture of you.
[3/4/2007 02:53:57] Katemari Rosa diz : i wont type anymore
[3/4/2007 02:54:25] Thomas Svenson diz : Not at all?
[3/4/2007 02:54:40] Katemari Rosa diz : (y)
[3/4/2007 02:55:04] Thomas Svenson diz : That's OK. I love you too-
[3/4/2007 02:55:30] Katemari Rosa diz : |-)|-)|-)
[3/4/2007 02:55:37] Katemari Rosa diz : :(
[3/4/2007 02:56:04] Katemari Rosa diz : (o)
[3/4/2007 02:56:34] Katemari Rosa diz : :*
[3/4/2007 02:56:47] Thomas Svenson diz : Oki, I guess you had enough of me. You need your sleep. Think about what we have talked about and lets talk some more about how we will go on from here...
[3/4/2007 02:57:12] Katemari Rosa diz : u 2
[3/4/2007 02:57:19] Katemari Rosa diz : think
[3/4/2007 02:57:28] Thomas Svenson diz : I will
[3/4/2007 02:57:39] Katemari Rosa diz : :*
[3/4/2007 02:58:01] Katemari Rosa diz : r u still smokin
[3/4/2007 02:58:12] Thomas Svenson diz : Tryin to quit
[3/4/2007 02:58:49] Thomas Svenson diz : You are my (sun), my only (sun) and I miss you so...
[3/4/2007 02:59:18] Katemari Rosa diz : (blush)
[3/4/2007 03:00:35] Katemari Rosa diz : tchau, thomas
[3/4/2007 03:00:51] Katemari Rosa diz : sleeping here
[3/4/2007 03:00:58] Thomas Svenson diz : Talk to you soon sweety
[3/4/2007 03:01:09] Katemari Rosa diz : anyhow, thanks for all you have said tonight
[3/4/2007 03:01:35] Katemari Rosa diz : i feel less a failure
[3/4/2007 03:01:50] Thomas Svenson diz : I needed too. I hope it has made some good for you and maybe some hope for the future
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